I kept myself away to hold on to my anger Didn’t want to show it to you because that’s not what you deserve. There was a hole which I couldn’t see anger was dripping, only to create an unpleasant matter between you & me. Why can’t we sync; why can’t we seek? I conveyed to you something and you thought- She is accusing me! It’s just that we wanted to share a part of you and a part of me… I am not accusing, my sweetheart please don’t get me wrong. I too might be feeble in revealing. I wish nothing, but the best for you All I see is an innocent kid looking for his world who is far away, showing no visible clues. The circle has turned you into a homeless still asking you back if you are making them worthless. Wake up and open your eyes, my dear Today I wanna feed you with my own hand Maybe this is the last time I would be fighting my fears; Won’t let you again get hurt & withstand. Life has always been a battle for ages Come on! Hide & Seek; Ghost & Man will make us forget....

What is a store-room? Who is an assistant? Thrillers disturb me, Please make choices if it's not personal! We are running on a pebbled street, we know! But we need to leave the hand to have a good flow. Things that we think we need but they never hold value in their present. Serves your purpose the most still treated as a dump is the store where those things are likely thrown! Things that are important, Again. Which we need but we don't want to do on our own. There you assume someone as an assistant who you think will do your chore. Please don't take anything as a blame I request. My heart is full of words and rage so I found a place to undress it's very comfortable and presently the best.

Drowning bit by bit in the well of pain; there are people around me who I won't blame. Those heavy breaths with deep sighs looking for the homely chest; where I would dive and without a conscious mind Just Cry! My throat burns, and the guts ignite. I see myself living in the memories which are just your & mine! LET'S TALK- whispers my heart. But the air is dusty which is pushing us miles apart. Waiting every day for an hour never does it get me tired. There's a term called 'hope' which is running on a loop like- Sunday, Monday, Thursday & Saturday! Share a part of your dark world that's what I've deeply asked you for, you know. Effortless distances are a slow poison where One is addicted & the other laying empty on the road which has no floor!

Emotions are suffocating me I feel like heaving. How do I unlearn communication? Please! talk to me. No,  this isn't a poem nor is this poetry. Mental health really matters So I keep taking these poetic medicines. People are wonderful but unfortunately, we don't sync. Should I live with memories; Or shall I just exist? Crispy blue sky- has always been my favourite view every day. It makes every colour so vibrant that my mind which always wants to open up, Cheerfully says- I have found the Way!

Silent to all behaviors, silent in the meet Words I don’t have any so that I am also put forward to speak. No, I no longer talk to my friends Because here I don’t have any. The change that you see in me is the result of my constant efforts and failing always to convince Making me remain silent to thee. Untold sacrifices are never seen! But I don’t want to speak. My sight is getting blurry I can’t see through my thoughts clearly Inject some nectar into my veins Which can clear all misunderstandings. It’s ok -Uttered my lips. But I am always eager to answer If you have questions for me! I don’t find the island anymore Where I spoke & people listened to me INTERESTINGLY. My silence might be considered as my stupidity But oh man! I observe- every detail and tiny things.

Sometimes, I just want to get lost in the sea... a sea that is dense, deep, dark, and tidy. Laying on my bed, trying to get a deep orgasm only if the sea would splash the cool upon me! stress now seems to me; like a railway line sitting in the engine, driving the train what do I do to move, off the lane? let me struggle, let me try wait for me dear sea... that day is far, but I'll come to dive before I die! silent just as you are; I'm somewhat learning to be. beautiful white flowers layering my thoughts upon closing my eyes: I could see. if not you, someone would be- My dear Sea!

I don't need any admiration I don't need your attention Yes, I do live in a society But I don't need to have any obligation. I wanna scream... Scream and scream until I breakdown to my knees. No, I don't wanna get noticed I don't want to be heard. Just if I had a tiny little world with me and some joyful dreams. Sometimes I'm lost, but for you- I am always there! I haven't made any deep attachments because I know it leaves us yellow like the autumn fall, Scattered Everywhere. Am I lucky? or Am I strong? The mind is never clear; Yes, it is full of fear. Who do I talk to, who really cares everybody has a world rolling into the darkness of hemispheres.

-Laitlum Grand Canyon, Meghalaya 2017 with my friends. (this picture got nothing relatable here but I couldn't resist from sharing it as my fingers slipped my mind from writing to opening old folders.)   Why is it that people always look for great innovations? Something that is new or an idea that has emerged out of an individual's mind has to be really great and convincing to almost all the classes of people of the society? Hundreds of ideas simply fall out; just fail. Either because of the fear that the society won't approve of it Or because the idea was put forward but couldn't reach to the people who would assent it. Look at those aspiring cooks, chefs, home cooks. Of course, there are zillions of them who cook so well, who cook for pleasure, or to satisfy someone else because satisfying a person by cooking him/her good food is yet another level of satisfaction for our own self. Well, I can confidently say that because I have been cooking as a hobby for years.😀 The...

You are the one! But how did I know?? You made me feel wanted You lent yourself to me You have always been so innocent & sweet Taking away a piece of my heart; Every time we meet! You showed me the love that I never knew existed. So selfless, so heartwarming Amidst the life phases which is mostly twisted! Those hugs which I can relate with -Gardening & Painting. Those kind words and the kisses after waking up & before sleeping! That exact length of beard the rolled-up sleeves and, You on a shirt! Messed up dry hair and your smell in the air How I can leave you unheard?! You are the one Yes! I could ever find none Please stop irritating me man I ain't able to tie up my bun!