Even sleep doesn't come to me when I'm alone. I don't know this feeling, I don't know what's happening. there's something thriving to come out somewhere not finding the place where to be. Periods are over, orgasms too done. I decided to be kind to my body today because it isn't able to have some fun. but still, I am lost or am I deprived Things now falling in place but I see myself breaking apart. I want to go out but I also don't have a place of choice. how do I deal with my mind it is high on caffeine and unable to hear its own voice. I got a lot of wonderful stuff that I could do but resistance always takes over willpower. I have my space, I am in a place, but there's trouble deep inside. My head is hurting, all it can do is finally cry don't know anything other than ask every time why. Please come soon I need a companion who could be my guide. But how do I tell you? Even you wanna fly.

Blue Waters, Blue Sky Bright Sunlight and a Green sight- are all enough to give me a high. The fresh mornings, the sound of the cuckoo, the small garden in my house and, beautiful roses in the neighbourhood. White, clean linen and a peaceful morning sound, Mark up the beginning of new energy aroused. Thoughts of a new life make repeated rounds in my mind. I'm getting impatient, I'm getting too excited- for that environment, that will make me unwind. A walk in the woods, some freshly brewed tea having seated on the stool. The waves in the water, desperately ask us to move. Fears are adventurous, just take that courageous step. You will fly like a sailor- the way you did in your dreams... a fortnight back!